Holy in his Sight
“But now he has reconciled you by Christ’s physical body through death to present you holy in his sight, without blemish and free from accusation.” Col. 1:22
The closer I get to light, the clearer I see my blemishes, so from the perspective of my personal experiences, I don’t think I feel any holier than I was before I was converted. Isn’t this rather depressing?
The issue is: How I feel toward myself really doesn’t have a whole lot to do with who and what I really am. I may feel quite pleased with myself, but that doesn’t mean that the Lord is pleased me. What I perceive about myself is merely an appearance, and what the Lord sees is my inner essence.
There is not a chance that I will feel entirely holy as long as I remain in the flesh; yet I am completely pure before the Lord. In fact, I have been this way since the day I was saved and will remain so until the end. How comforting and reassuring this particular thought is! “But now he has reconciled you by Christ’s physical body through death to present you holy in his sight, without blemish and free from accusation.”
If this is really so, why do I continue to struggle against sin and have yet to experience the joy and peace of being holy before the Lord? I might have been happier and far more at ease with myself before my conversion, for I was able to make justification for all my actions, no matter how morally corrupt they might have been. I could no longer do the same things after I was justified by my faith in the Lord Jesus.
Perhaps I need to constantly remind myself that I am not how I feel, but I am what I truly am. I am who the Lord considers me to be, and if he deems me holy and without blemish, that’s the real me indeed.
I have been presented in God’s sight “without blemish and free from accusation,” even though I feel rather lousy about myself a lot of times. In fact, it’s a daily occurrence that I bring accusation against myself for being sinful and unholy, for doing something that I shouldn’t have done or failing to do something that I should have done.
“Woe is me!” exclaimed the apostle Paul.
There is indeed turmoil within our hearts if we fail to look up to Jesus and be clothed in his robe of righteousness every day. Yet this should never become a pretext for us to remain who and what we are, without making a great effort to become holier before God and men. I long to become holy, not only in God’s sight, but in my own perception as well.