“ … and in Christ you have been brought to fullness.” Col. 2:10
I guess I have grown to be too old to dream any dreams and, if there is still a dream left to dream at all, what will it be? I often wonder.
There were plenty of excuses to be made in my youth if my life was full of holes, yet by this time I seem to have run out of pretexts to make to apologize for the incompletion and imperfection of my life. There is really very little I can do to fill up the holes in my life if they have not been filled already.
Many people whom I admire a great deal had already passed away at about my age, Lewis and Eliot included; why should I be any different? And what I have achieved up to this point pales so much compared to what the aforementioned people had done. Indeed, my life has been rather incomplete, and there is just so little time left to make up the difference.
What else can I still do to make my life fuller as I am rapidly approaching my retirement age? I am wondering.
I was surprised to see that there was gap of one month before I posted my devotional. How did it happen? I was greatly puzzled, for it had never happened before. There was only one constant in the previous fifteen years or so that I seldom failed to post my daily devotionals. Am I quitting? I ask. Will my life even be complete without me “writing through” the entire Bible?
One thing that I am pretty sure of at this point in time is that I may not have sufficient time to finish what I have started and, if this turns out to be the case, will my life still be fulfilled?
The apostle Paul might have been convicted that he should end his earthly ministry in Spain, yet there is no definite answer whether he made it there or not. If this particular wish wasn’t fulfilled, was his life fully fulfilled just the same?
Whether we are fulfilled or not, a person’s life shouldn’t be determined by what we do but by who we are. We can only be completed “in Christ” really, for “in Christ you have been brought to fullness.” Therefore, my main focus should always be on whether I am in Christ or not, not on what I can do to bring about my fulfilment as a person.
Will I be able to finish the mission the Lord called me to do years ago? This is the question I am wrestling with constantly, and it seems to become increasingly difficult to compose, yet I will continue to dwell in him, and what I may produce in writing will be the direct result of my relationship with Christ, and my fullness as a person will ultimately be the fullness in him.
Tuesday, July 31, 2018 8:30:00 AM