“…being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience.” Col 1:11
We have no idea what will happen to us until something actually happens, therefore it’s a waste of time to be preparing how to react to it. How does it feel to be in hospice care? I often caught myself thinking about this when I was standing by Kathy’s mother’s hospital bed. How would I have behaved had I been placed in her position?
Of course, I have no earthly idea.
I couldn’t have imagined going through a major surgery a few months ago, for it made me cringe at the thought of going to a doctor, let alone going under the knife. Yet that was something I had to do after I ran out of options. Had I been sufficiently strengthened to go through the venture when the time came? I wish that were the case, but that wasn’t how I was feeling consciously. I merely went through the motions and did what I was told to do, for the alternative was just so much worse.
I guess my strength was just sufficient for that very moment, for I simply had no other place to turn. I suppose that’s a natural reaction for all humans, for we all do what’s necessary to survive. I honestly cannot make the claim that I was empowered by divine strength. I was afraid.
“Great endurance and patience” was what I desperately needed at the time, and somehow I did survive the whole ordeal. It’s been a mouth and half since the procedure, and I have yet to return to the clinic for the follow-up, so can I honestly say that my inner self has been strengthened after the experience? Probably not. I will feel the same way as before if I have to go through a similar experience.
Billions of people in human history have lived and died, and their end of life experiences must have been rather similar. How are Christians different from pagans in the way they suffer and die?
Come to think of it, I probably have failed to claim the power and strength that was available to me at the time when I needed it the most. Perhaps it’s more likely that I was indeed strengthened unaware at the critical juncture. I was merely speaking from the level of my natural experience, and failed to take account of the supernatural, which was also in operation.
No matter how I feel, the fact remains that I have had great endurance and patience during the time when I needed it the most, and I certainly can’t credit that to my will or strength, for I am by nature frail and weak.
Indeed, I have been “strengthened with all power according to his glorious might” during the time when I desperately needed it.
Thursday, May 10, 2018 7:46:00 AM