Christ in Me
“I have been crucified with Christ and I
no longer live, but Christ lives in me.”
Is this some sort of unfriendly cohabitation? Probably. My flesh still seeks to control my entire
being and sometimes it manages to gain the upper hand in this unending
competition for domination between the Spirit of the Lord and my carnal self.
My body has turned into a war zone and the battle has been going on for many years.
To which side am I going to declare my allegiance? Is this even a question? “I have been
crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me.” May this
verse be our daily reminder when we are tempted to choose to surrender to the
enemy and take up his cause.
It’s not me who lives; it’s Christ who lives in me.
I have fallen short in so many ways, both as a Christian and a servant of the Lord and,
consequently, I have developed a bad habit of condemning myself for not
striving hard enough to lead a life of holiness and for not working diligently
to advance God’s kingdom. I don’t think it’s Christ who lives in me doing the
condemning; it’s the accusing voice of Satan who tells me that I am not worthy
of Christ’s love and am not deserving to be a minister of the gospel.
The Holy Spirit who dwells within me does not condemn me in anyway; he only convicts me
of my sins and enables me to repent. The Lord cannot condemn and forgive at the
same time. Christ’s death on the cross is the basis of his forgiveness.
The ones who have the indwelling of Christ don’t judge or condemn themselves.
When I was taking my morning walk, I was trying to calculate how many people truly love
me, and the number turned out to be quite small. “Isn’t God’s love enough for
you?” I said to myself, becoming rather impatient with my lack of self-esteem.
I seemed to have developed another bad habit of self-pity over the years and
have often felt sorry for myself when things are not going well.
How can I, the one who is shaped in the image of God and the dwelling place of the Holy Spirit,
feel sorry for myself? It’s insulting to the Christ who lives in me if I start
to pity myself.
Self-pity is contradictory to the spiritual reality of Christ in me.
Self-loathing is also something against which I have been battling for as long as I can
remember. Although I have been redeemed by the blood of Christ, there seems to
be a wide chasm existing between my ideal self and my real self and, as a
result, a strong sense of self-loathing gradually has crept into my heart.
Is Christ-in-me to be loathed? To loathe myself is to despise Christ who lives
To be crucified with Christ means to put our old self to death on the cross, including all our
feelings of self-condemnation, self-pity, and self-loathing, and by doing so, a
new self created in the image of Christ through resurrection will be born.