“But they mocked God’s messengers, despised his words and scoffed at his prophets until the wrath of the Lord was aroused against his people and there was no remedy.” 2 Ch. 36:16
It’s not merely one decision that we have made to despise God’s words and to scoff at God’s servants; all the decisions that we have ever made in life do have a cumulative effect and they will snowball on us before we know it. No single decision we make is truly isolated and one bad decision tends to lead to another and, if they are not corrected in time, the consequence of all our ill-advised choices will become irredeemable.
I am what I am at the present time is a direct result of all the choices I have made up to this very moment. Decision-making is habit-forming, and all the bad decisions we have ever made will eventually turn into habits, which will become deeply rooted in our hearts and become integral parts of our beings. I am, actually, is the cumulative effect of all the decisions I have ever made.
We are not entirely helpless in the scheme of things, however, for we can determine what sort of people we desire to become by making all the decisions conducive to the desirable outcome.
Perhaps there is such a thing as a “generational curse,” and the way we have been brought up may actually contribute to what kind of person we will turn out to be. Therefore, I am not entirely responsible for what and who I am, and all my vices can be traced back precisely to their environmental or genetic roots in the not so distant past. By the time I became aware of myself, all the bad habits caused by all the bad decisions made have been formed and the bondage may take an entire life time to break. The chain isn’t as easy to sever as one may surmise.
The remedy is nowhere to be found except in Christ Jesus, however. Paul wrote in Romans: “There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.”
My power to resist the urge to look at screens every waking moment of my day, be they big screen or small, has become weaker and weaker, and it finally got to the point when I realize I am totally powerless to fight back and ultimately succumb to their tyranny. My life, unfortunately, will be defined by all the superfluous things I do routinely every day, and I simply can do nothing about it. This is rather depressing, isn’t it?
It’s an act of self-abandonment if I cease to fight against all things which I reckon undesirable, unspiritual, and displeasing to God. I will not get to the point when I become absolutely irredeemable as long as I continue to wage war against my dark self.